you can't hurry love

black monday

I’ve tried to skip over my failed relationship with my ex-girlfriend, today is of course valentine’s day and I am still single, and I still have nothing to really say.

I don’t really believe in holding harmful things in, however my neo-victorian upbringing won’t allow me to really admit to any real emotion. I have in fact spent the last three months since the break-up trying to have an emotional response. I was sick for three days, quiet for a week and then… nothing.

though not really nothing, just the low grade brooding that most people have when something negative, but not life shattering, happens. I was of course let down with the time-honored, ‘I love you, but I need to grow,’

there are of course many ways to grow; emotionally, spiritually, religiously, metaphysically, and physically. I try not to the mental strain is too much for my feeble brain, but my once-significant other, I believe, is on a quest to grow emotionally and spiritually. and I suppose with out my black cloud of imminent damnation following her she shall have an easier time.

I wish her all that monotheism and the path of charity can bring her, I shall have none.

I think I sound a little bitter, I think that might count as an emotion…

week-end at podunks

this past week-end I ventured to the bitter north to visit my eldest sister, podunk and her husband Holbrook. I had a good time playing with their dog, being avoided by their cats and drinking most of their dr pepper. in fact all their dr pepper.

my sojourn started on friday with a long hateful drive through ellis county. there are to my estimation only two things on the road that are against me; toyotas and ellis county.

no other county in the state of texas has worse roads or worse construction. I kid you not there is a crack from one end of the county to the other and they’re not even trying to fix it. I think they are actively trying to widen the crack to keep people in one lane.

and I can’t drive 55. I know this and god knows this, so why does ellis county have to drop an interstate highway down to 55? bastards.

happier days were to follow. saturday brought a road-trip to denton and a purple book store and a dungeon of history. I was able to find a couple of good books I’ve been wanting for a while and I also found a book about the angevin kings of england I didn’t even know was out there.

I also got an over cook steak for lunch, so good time had by all.

sunday was even less eventful, except that I finally got to see Richard III on dvd, the really good one with ian mckellen. I love this version of the play, arguably (and all things are arguable) shakespeare’s greatest comedy. as holbrook and my father have commented he seduces a woman over the body of her dead husband, that he killed.

and the really funny thing is that this might be the most historically accurate part of the whole play.